THE DEVIL HAS A BIBLE

STATUS UPDATE QUEENS. I have heard stories and watched movies of people being very blind-sighted in love, dealing with liars, alcoholics, and manipulators who claim to love Jesus, but the Devil knows the bible. I always thought that there was an aspect of exaggeration until I became a victim myself. Let's start by saying being a single mother with young kids and being the sole provider for your kids can make us very vulnerable and easy prey for males. Men are very observant and find women like us who work hard, keep their heads high, and go to church but need someone who can step in when they feel weak. On Sunday morning, I walked in on another woman in his bed; he was so drunk that he didn't remember having her there ( I might write a book). I drove away feeling so betrayed yet so confused because how could the man who prays with me, goes to church, be this absolute F up. More to discuss on this. All I could think of was that I needed to go to church and just lay it all at the altar and let God heal my pain; I got my boys ready, threw on some clothes, and hurriedly drove to church. After dropping off my boys at child care, the main service hall was packed and closed, so I stood holding back tears. Then I looked to the side and saw the prayer section. I walked there, my eyes watering, asking the woman at the front if she could pray for me. I needed literally anyone to pray for me, I certainly couldn't pray for myself; my heart was too shattered. The lady in the prayer section held my hand, and I just cried it all out; I felt ashamed, betrayed, stupid, unlovable, disgusted, and sad, and parts of my identity were missing. She said, Elle, if a man truly loves God, he will be tempted to have you physically because you are beautiful, but his fear of God will stop him. Her words were so profound, and it made sense why people wait to have sex. I thought it was just women playing hard to get or people not having sex early because the bible said so, but the way she worded it unlocked something in me.
As a mother, my ultimate job is to raise my boys in a safe space, and that safe space starts with my heart and my energy. If I am devastated and broken, my babies will feel it. Still, if I live a life full of LOVE, HAPPINESS, PURITY, SELF-CONSCIOUSNESS, DISCIPLINE, AND EMOTIONAL STABILITY, my boys will be raised in a healthy atmosphere. I'm empowered to share this because I know most women, especially single mothers who read my blog, have experienced some form of betrayal after their divorce but are too afraid or ashamed to say it out loud. After all, how could we make the same mistake twice, but the Devil owns a Bible. I hope this inspires you, and more importantly, as we continue to date intentionally, let's focus on the right things: our faith, sense of safety, and peace of mind.
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