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CONFIDENCE

CONFIDENCE

I recently read that confidence is a learned behavior not a special skill that people with super powers have. I always thought that 'pretty' girls and 'handsome' men were born with a natural radiating confidence and poise. Sadly, I did not consider myself beautiful my Entire pre-teen and teenage years. There was a ridiculous theory that may still Exist in some parts of Africa that made 'DARK-SKIN' women believe that there weren't beautiful Enough or sexy . I remember being called unattractive or monkey looking by my fellow African mates. As a young girl who grew up in a #troubled household,I believed Everything my classmates told me and I had absolutely no confidence and zero self Esteem. Then I moved to the U.S and got called stunning, gorgeous, a queen, black and beautiful-it was hard for me to belive a word of that. The white guys adored my skin and the latinex made me feel sexy. I felt sexy for once and started to think -maybe I don't need to be lighter to be noticed . I Emerged myself into fitness yearning for more attention and it worked for years I was called sexy and gorgeous because of my skin and my body but my inner confidence relied on those compliments. Then I started to understand my identity and my worth after a failed marriage , two gorgeous boys and a not so toned body. I wondered how hard I had to workout to get back to who I was -what I looked like. how long did I need to account for my macros ? It is ridiculous and stressful to go through that. My love for Exercising keeps me regularly in the gym, and it has been a source of stress relief but my inner confidence is much larger than I Ever Experienced. I love who I am from the inside out, I don't rely on compliments to feel stunning, and I practice #self-love. Do I belive in a good round of Botox and BBL? ABSOLUTELY BABE  . That may make me more comfortable and confident in my body, and I strongly belive that how we look and how we perceiveour bodies directly affects our CONFIDENCE and how we carry ourselves. So whatever you do- DO NOT lose track of your inner SEXINESS MY LOVE and if it means getting larger tits-GO FOR IT and don't feel the need to Explain to anybody other than yourself.  I LOVE YOU xoxo