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HONESTY

HONESTY

I had to be honest about the complex parts of me that may have not fully healed. My wholeness depends on this process -the healing process. I find that dealing with the tough choice of divorce and healing through childhood trauma has not only impacted the way we view the world for life but it very well could also interfere with our chances at a healthy partnership. In my recent dating experiences, I have been instrumental in guarding my heart -it's not only for me but for my boys. I now have to deal with the pressure of ensuring that my boys aren't meeting anyone who isn't fully invested -but do we ever fully know, or is it always a huge gamble? I mean I thought my marriage was meant to last forever -it wasn't and praise the universe it is almost over. The honest truth is I have put up 10ft walls around my heart so many walls- so tall that it will only take the most dedicated and the most patient partner to truly be let in. In the End we all seek to be seen, heard and felt deeply and truly, to be understood and to be acknowledged. It isn't something that can be replaced with any amount of money. In my quest to finding my identity, I learned that it is only my job to truly be happy-honestly.So putting upwalls may interfere with the Entirety of my inner happiness but one thing i know for sure is my life is so full with so much love and Energy to share with the right people.