I read a book recently that talks about the internal family system concept. It is very intriguing to learn more about the parts and beings that make up my very own 'SELF'. I found myself speaking to my 9yr old self well she may have been 7. She was scared seating in a dark room waiting for the yelling to begin. She did not have a stuffed animal but held on tight as if ready to run towards the loud banging and the screaming. My childhood was absolutely awful and filled with trauma as such the parts that live in me have become very defensive and skeptical perhaps a little co-dependent. In my journey of understanding my absolute value and worth, I know how my past trauma could have molded my inner beings into becoming indifferent. The truth is I am learning more about myself now than I ever have and it is probably the most Enlightening journey I have been on. In my connection with my inner self, I identified that my very own beings are in their youthfulness fighting to keep my 'SELF' protected but in this very moment, I know that my ultimate goal is to free my inner parts and have a more centered life.
I made this post in the hopes of becoming more transparent with myself and hopefully guiding my readers through a deeper understanding of SELF.